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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

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i am mood-swinging.
sigh.
things are not going right.
i am feeling so moody today.
was damn quiet for the first half of school.
totally don't feel like talking much,
feeling so tired of everything.
and i just feel like crying my heart out.
arrghh.
dyan's not here.
and i feel so bored.
no one to talk to in classes.
and no one to walk with in between.
so i'm a loner today.
haha.
she won't be here tomorrow either.
how nice.
gonna be a loner for one more day.
and that panty might change our seats.
great.

yeah.
today's supposedly study session was cancelled.
a last minute thing.
but never mind.
i don't have the mood to study anyway.

had a study session on monday.
with liting and pratah,
go to liting's blog for more details.
it was fun and later,
!!!
yeah.

had some workshop yesterday,
but mel and i happily used the internet instead.
haha.
last minute complete those shit.
compass later with jaima, liting and kang.
BK-ed.

i just can't stand the way i feel.
i don't know just how much longer i can take these shit.
i really need to vent out everything,
i just can't stand pretending that everything's alright,
when i feel like breaking down.
i don't wanna put on a fake front anymore.
i don't know what is true, or rather, who is true anymore.
so totally lost.
no one understands.
i don't seem to get things right.
my life is screwed.
my friendships suck.
my kinship is non-existant.
what else is left?
i have no idea.
i really wanna start everything over again.
i hate myself.
i hate my life.

okay, so tomorrow's cancelled too. how nice. so i guess i'll prolly be home early again. what a boring life. everything's seemed to be cancelled at the last minute. what's going on? right. 3 periods of amaths tomorrow. oh man. i will so die please. i really seriously wanna transfer out of 3F. i really don't have a sense of belonging there. no point saying. like it will ever happen. and people will just keep popping the usual questions, like, "why?" blahs. i really want 1G. it was the best class for me. followed by 2E larhh. yeah. i should move on with life and not live in the past. tomorrow is gonna be a BORING day for me. mainly cause other than dyan, there isn't really anyone who i can like you know, talk? as in chat and not run out of topic? so i will be bored to death. haha. but never mind. i am used to it. and partly cause the lessons are mostly boring? those kind that can put you to sleep. (: yeah. and i forgot to mention, i LOVE ROGER FEDERER please. he is such a classy tennis player! :D haha.

does anyone give a damn shit?